!-=DreAMS=-!=-...(,")(",)...-=!. says:
tell u sth
!-=DreAMS=-!=-...(,")(",)...-=!. says:
the more i am ur sis
!-=DreAMS=-!=-...(,")(",)...-=!. says:
the more u shld not buy things for mi
!-=DreAMS=-!=-...(,")(",)...-=!. says:
just build this into ur mind
!-=DreAMS=-!=-...(,")(",)...-=!. says:
Dun ask why
!-=DreAMS=-!=-...(,")(",)...-=!. says:
just hav this statement can le
!-=DreAMS=-!=-...(,")(",)...-=!. says:
ok
What more can i say but ok ? I duno the reasons as to why u say the more u r my sis, the more i shldnt buy things for u.. since im not allowed to ask why...But since u said tt, i will say ok ... i wont do the things u dun like...and one more thing, u ask me isit becoz u're my sis.... Respect wise yes.. yes i give respect to everyone, but to u, even more..
As for the buying things wise..i care thru practical means ba.. if u want me to change to care using words.. i can lor... its just that.... will i have the chance?it seems like u're stronger than me...
and in the first place, would u tell me that u're stress or unhappy...even if i ask, u will say nothing ba.. by the time i think of how to cheer u up.. guess u would have cheered urself up...
I believe and fully agree that showing care is not best through monetary ways. But, i really really duno how to show my care to u, other than buying u things.. i duno why but just want to buy u things that u actually like... i guess all along this is a wrong thinking that stayed in me.. and all along i took the wrong route..
i duno how to tell u... but then i will do what u say, wont buy u things with no reason, but food wise, i hope i can still do what i do in the past.. just like the rule i've set for myself in the previous entry...with exemptions.
Till date... am still regretting what i did on tues...really 200% regretful.. coz yes i did learn a lesson, but at the same time, that is just like a scar in my heart... everything i do now, i will hold myself back... making it a obstacle to me... do u noe how it feels ? I guess....it wont be the same as what i can do in the past... wish clock can turn back... but wads done cant be undone... so forget it...slowly deleting it from my heart drive ...
