Very bad day for both of us.. 15th nov.. very bad.. u got scolded by ur fac, mine was a mess at the ensemble. Instead of practising, we were there sort of thrashing everything out... it was a long story, maybe coz yijun was the trigger ba.. and then came yongquan's lecture about the ensemble, and being late for lessons and ensemble.. i find it very tiring to tell u from scratch, so i just briefly say here ba... something happened today, coz yijun called me and sort of scolded me why m i at blk A when its already 5... then its like the atmosphere n mood all not very good, tensed up.. hmm ya then yong quan lectured the whole ensemble... and some cried la.. well, i felt very tired.. after the whole thing, coz initially in the day, im already very tired le.. then still like this.. with lectures n people crying... then make me feel so bad... just dun like to see that... now i m half dead... brain fully dead.. and guess i eat too fast le, hence gastric pain now.. here i m on my bed writing this.. which i find the whole day, was the most relaxing to do.. coz im pouring everything to u and im lying down.. haha initially when i first smsed u.. i was thinking, im really tired, and after all those shit, all i need is just a shoulder to rest on... im really tired.. so tot of u.. then u told me u were at the bus stop, then i saw 132 coming down the road.. .. i tot u were on the bus, so i told myself.. fated le.. haiz.. then meili told me u were at the blk A bus stop.. i was like HUH?!!? I DINT SEE U ...
hmm.. sometimes i do wonder why u will take bus from there.. anyway... ya.. how i wish i will see u at the bus stop, then all i would do is just sit beside u and remain quiet.abit weird la.. but thats what i tot of la.. but after thinking to myself on my way to 51 bus stop, i was thinking.. so what if i see u.. what can u do.. ? and i knew even if i see u, i wont know what to say, coz im too tired to tell u what happened, i duno how to tell u and i know u wont have the energy.. for i noe u're tired enough too.. Furthermore, how can i expect u to be there everytime something happens to me.. i will rely on u too much.. well... so i duno what to do now.how to concentrate and study for UT.. coz im simply too tired, all i need is rest.. a good day's rest is enough, but thats quite hard to achieve... esp when the performance is getting nearer n nearer...and UT is on thurs... tried the methods u always tell me.. think of the beautiful side... etc but still m tired..
How m i going to get back the energy and the focus to study.... all im thinking of is slp now.. hmm.. btw how was training ? tough ? Nonetheless, i hope tmr will be a good day for both of us... and sis, dun hai anymore le... smilez.. 18 more days to go ok... =)
* what did the fac say abt ur team ? * hmm .. checked my pharmacotherapy grades.. and the new pharmacist gave me a B.. and KY c... just dun get it.. why sometimes we do so much and in the end the grade is not as good as others who are of equal standard or even worse, did nothing at all? rather unfair i think.. and some got A just becoz they acted as some parts of the counselling.. what is this ? not as if i never participate, in fact trying very hard.. haiz.. duno how the facs grade too..
okok, enough of grumbling le..look at my title..
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