31st october.. the last day of october... in another 1 ++ hrs marks the beginning of nov..How was your day on the last day of oct? Busy? ya i guess u were... dint really tok to u today... well i guess wont see u for the next 3 days until fri ba... even so, wont have time n chance to talk to u too.. Heard that today Cell cycle was about cancer... why not i tell u what i learn today haha, like u noe in the past mum always their kids.. what did u learn in school today ??? so i will say Jie jie, for sports psy we learnt abt stress, arousal and anxiety..learnt quite alot today ba... and i discovered something abt me while reading through the web...
i've got cognitive anxiety.. and situational stresses... by definition.. cognitive stress is having negative thoughts about something from moment to moment.. while situational stresses can be divided into 2 sections - importance of event and uncertainties.. so meaning, the more important one perceives something as of high importance, he/she will feel more stress..and coz he/she cares too much, this leads to uncertainties of what is going to happen.. thus leading to stress too..
I've got all the above i mentioned.. now i noe why le... i think alot coz i care for alot of things... and is care alot that kind.. so the more i care, the more i feel uncertain... the more stress i m... whether to work or outside work.. this is also to u too.. coz honestly i care alot alot for how u feel.. so the more i care, the more i want to make it perfect = stress. And the worst is.. when u have no reaction to something.. i feel so lost and uncertain of how u feel, in my mind i think alot of what u will think... i will picture anything that comes into my mind...so im always that stresss... finally understand... thats y i said i learnt quite alot.. other than that.. learnt some relaxation techniques...etc...but lesson was a little long and boring.. new fac today... duno why today's not the right mood for me to concentrate.. isit coz of holidays? *wonders*
Dint feel like toking today.. initially planned to go for a walk myself which i did on the mons for the last 4 weeks..i go for walks myself after sch.. but today got tiffany etc.. but dint tok much though... crapped abit.. i cant possibly keep quiet for the whole journey isnt it.. thats going to be weird.. they will think what happened to me... ahaha...at the back of my mind, wondered if u see my blog le.. coz i wrote to ask u out...actually i got alot of things want to do, places to go with u b4 u actually leave for monash..but dun seem to have the opportunities and time given...but nvm.. wait till u have the time ba..i just watched the korea show.. stairway to heaven.. wah..so sad la.. make me cry n cry ... wah... my tears flow like watertap... hahaa..crybaby.. but no one saw it ! *bleah* there's one scene, the bro told the sis, whatever comes, he will always be there to be guide and protect her.. so touching la..i also want.. wish i aso have a shoulder to lie on when i need.. need not be a guy.. a fren will do too..but of coz, close one la.. i wont drop tears infront of someone im nt close to anyway...
am listening to the song Hero by enrique iglesias now.. attracted to the song when i heard it at mango when u n mel were looking at clothes... nice song, nice lyrics...
would u dance if i ask u to dance
would u run and never look back
would u cry if u see im crying
would u save my soul tonight.....
i can be ur hero baby ...
i can kiss away the pain
i will stand by u 4eva..
u can take my breath away...
oh its 1st nov le !!!!
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